Writing .. The Day in the Life of a Vaccine Injured Child

  I have been asked many times, "why don't you write a book"? Well my response is I don't have a lot of time. I spend a lot of time trying to figure how I am going to get things done that have to be done. I do want to make an effort though. I feel that information that I have is valuable to many people. There are many families with and with out special needs that always need coaching in the area of Faith.  We just so happen to have a special needs child, and so our faith has to be at a different level. I love my daughter more than anything but she is a challenge! We moved our family 1600 miles West with promise of a job when we got here, but it didn't happen they told my husband after our FMLA expired they still had a job for him in Arkansas but not in California. We have spent a year looking, applying, interviewing - Nothing.  We move on.
  We started this journey of faith many years ago but didn't realize it was faith. We started trying to overcome one battle after another and before you know it, all the battles seem to run together. We are now at a place where we start looking for the battles before they happen. Do the battles always happen, yes, but we are able to over come them. Do we get frustrated, yes, but we know they don't last forever.
  As my husband was out looking for a job this past week, starting week before last, he and Abigaile started getting sick. They have been sick for over a week now. UUGGHH! I hate it when you have a child that is ill, much less one that you can't give anything to - so they feel better.
  It is more than difficult to get anything done while there are ill people in the house.  Nothing seems to go the right way. I have learned you just have to do the bare necessities, shelter, food, water, and whatever travel you have to do and move on soldier. God does tell us there will be trials and tribulations in this world, I think  He must have forgot to limit ours. It seems like a constant battle. I was reading last night and let me share with you what I found, or did God, like He did know that I needed it (I'm at the end of my rope right now) and put it right in front of me? God does these sort of things.

 They were helped against them, and the Hagrites and all who were with them were given into their hand; for they cried out to God in the battle, and He answered their 
prayers because they trusted in Him. 1 Chr. 5:20. 


  Here is what Matthew Henrys commentary says about it, and I believe this is true. 

The two tribes and a half seated on the east side of Jordan were made captives by the king of Assyria, because they had forsaken the Lord. Only two things are here recorded concerning these tribes. 1. They all shared in a victory. Happy is that people who live in harmony together, who assist each other against the common enemies of their souls, trusting in the Lord, and calling upon him. 2. They shared in captivity. They would have the best land, not considering that it lay most exposed. The desire of earthly objects draws to a distance from God's ordinances, and prepares men for destruction. We get so caught up trying to make everything happen, get everything done that we forget what is really important. It doesn't mean that we should never take time to ourselves. It also doesn't mean that we shouldn't plan and try to organize and work.  It just means that we can only do so much and instead of trying to make things happen sometimes we have to let it go, and let God!     When you are sick, you really get down time to think about this.  My sweet little girl who is eight, but can't walk yet, can't completely talk yet, is unable to take any medications to feel better because the ones she has taken in the past has caused seizures. She was miserable, she was not sleeping, and thank the Lord she did not have one seizure. She did have a lot of drop seizures just prior to all her sick symptoms showing. We hadn't dealt with those seizures in a long time. I don't miss those stupid things, in fact, I hate seizures!  My youngest princess was so miserable. Then yesterday, this stinking sick thought it was coming on me! I exercised my power that God has given to me and said I do not get sick and I refuse this sickness on me , my smallest princess was laying her sweet little head on my shoulder and in the sweetest voice saying mommy I wuv  ooouuuhh. Well who can resist that.  Today I am better, trying to work on starting my day by giving it to God, then seeing what I can get finished besides that.   We went to a really special event last week that hosted Barbara Loe Fischer. I am so glad that we went. We also got to take pictures with her. Yeah! It was because of her organization that I was able to get resources to help in when our daughter Abigailehmm where does that leave us?  We didn't have a cent and were loosing everything we had to take care of our child because of our inadequate, ineffective system.   Barbara Loe Fischer is my hero, she has done much for our kids with vaccine injuries and continues to do so even though her own son is older now and her children are grown. If it had not been for her organization I would not have gotten the information, the resources that I needed to get our daughters case. Trust me there was no one, not the Dr who gave her the shots, the clinic, the hospital, or health Department or anyone else that would help me. I felt so helpless. There has been many sleepless nights, we lost our home, we lost cars, we have moved from rental to rental, lost family because they disagree with how we live they get angry because we don't send gifts or cards when we don't have money to send frivolous things like that. Its a shame that's all they care about. Not even a birthday card to either child for Happy Birthdays. If you have family that does things or friends when you have a special needs child, consider yourself blessed. The one who has seen us through all of this and why we are not homeless, we have never gone hungry, our clothes are worn and tattered and we still don't have a job. We do have God, we have always had God. God will be here till the end. Barbara Loe Fischer -Newport Beach California October 2011

A night out - A huge blessing

  We were really blessed yesterday to be able to attend an event that we normally would not get to go see. We were really blessed.  We put out names in for the Starlight Foundation several months ago in LA. I'm not sure that I thought we would ever really get a call. We have been disappointed many times but  with the hubby having not a employer right now I was really praying for this as it was to help boost him a little also.
  I got an email 2 days ago asking if we would be interested in RSVP for a hockey game. It was the season home opener. I thought sure why not.  What I didn't realize is that the Honda Center had donated tickets to the Starlight Foundation for two suites. Yes we got to sit and watch the hockey game in the suites. It was really a lot of fun. We had some issues getting there with good ole' LA traffic but it was worth it. Abigaile had a bit of a time with all the flashes going off around us as it triggered her a few seizures.  I am thankful to those who donated the tickets and the suites! It was a blessing to us. We were there with about 5 other families so it was a small group there were only two other families in our suite the others were next door.
  It doesn't seem like a lot to some people but we haven't had a vacation or time off in eight years since Abigaile got sick from the vaccine reaction.  God sends those little blessings when we need them. (I just hope the next time He would send a vacation , a cruise (not to sound greedy) but it would be nice to get away. I know with God all things are possible.
  I'll post a few pictures that I took while there, hope you enjoy !

blessings

Paris

A New Direction , or stay still, listen for that small still voice

Matt. 6:26 says this,  look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into the barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. 

So thankful for those of you who leave messages for Abigaile and our family. They are very much well- received. Its so nice to know that someone has taken the time to write and sign our guestbook as that is pretty much the only time we hear from anyone.   

  Dad and I took a short coffee date away today from the girls and left them in good hands for a couple of hours today.  We have some really tough decisions to make.  Let me give you a brief story on how we ended up in Southern California.  Abigail was having many seizures sometimes a hundred or so per day of the drop seizures.  This was from many different triggers.  Her treating Pediatrician Dr Jerry is here in Southern California.  We have spent the past 7-8 years of when Abigaile has had an event, we would go to the ER, explain to a Dr her story, only to have them order meds that she couldn't take. It is a nightmare.  Dr Jerry has treated her long distance, it is very difficult logistics wise on how this happens (you wouldn't or couldn't believe me if I told you) it is just too crazy.  We had planned to move to Fla. when Dr Jerrys office was in Florida and it didn't happen, nothing came together. Then Dr Jerry explained he and his family were relocating to Southern California so we thought we will pray about it and see what happens. Abigailes seizures were increasing and we felt that we needed to do something even if it were a temporary move, and to move back. Allen took FMLA was told that his company would likely have a position for him here after he came off FMLA. We really had open doors everywhere we planned to come to S. Cal.  so we decided that we felt peace with it, gave away what we didn't need, store a couple of family treasures at a friend, who thank God isn't charging me rent. She has done so well, gaining weight, we went for two months, not having a drop seizure and even when she has had seizures it was partial seizures and due to foods that we tried her on. She is not the same little girl at all. She has gained almost 20lbs and where she is suppose to be at weight and height finally Praise be to God on the scale. God has surely blessed us. When we came out we rented a vacation rental, and looked for a home to move to. We found one just a few miles away from the beach (this is great because when Abigaile gets in the smog area she has drop seizures or in the hot areas with no breeze it causes seizures. We have been where we couldn't get out in the winter it affects her vitamin D storage we started her on Vitamin D drops that has helped tremendously but we see her thriving here, trying to walk, pulling up to everything, having Organic foods more readily available. It is still super- expensive to get foods though and meats that are corn free. A nightmare. It is $165.00 for a corn- free turkey. We will be having chicken for Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner. We just can't afford it. I pay $8.50 per doz for her eggs that are corn free. She has to eat. We can't get these resources in Arkansas or many other places. 

Abigaile getting TMS treatments the first week we arrived. 

  Allen has now been unemployed for a year this week. My salary is not enough to live on here in Southern California. It is not enough for rent. Our lease will expire in December. We don't want to move because Abigaile is doing so well, and thriving. We may not have a choice though.  We have to have money to live.  We need money for daily living, and necessities that we are starting to lack and they are catching up to us. Allen has not been able to get a job and has gotten less than a handful of interviews, we can't even get a part time position.  

My little Abigaile has never been able to stand like this. She doesn't have all the seizures here and it is warm enough for her to be out. She didn't even flinch and stood for almost 5 minutes alone. 

  I am working on getting things made for our home business but with the therapy and treatments it has been difficult, and then when my health went berzerk it didn't help.  God has seriously always provided for us, and made food, money, and so many different things when we needed it. I have sold things to people, catered food to businesses (we love you Perrys Jewelry) when we needed provision and it was just always there. I know God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow and He will supply all of needs according to His glory, not mine or anyone else's.  We have to make a decision. We need a job, will need a place to live and it may be that we just have to come visit California a couple of times per year or come live here during the winter so we can get out year round. I have given it to God. There is a medical trust to help pay for Abigailes care, but it doesn't pay for everything and we have a big tab for her care every month. It doesn't pay for all of her food, and it doesn't pay for the cleaning products that are very pricey that don't contain this or that so that she doesn't have seizures.

My precious little spit-fire girl, who says "I'm Healed, even when she is having a seizure " Yes, sweet Abigaile you are healed according to the Word of God. 

 I'm giving to God these things, I'm also giving Him the things that we haven't seen yet, I'm also giving Him all my cares and worries because I know that He is the author and the finisher.  Thank you to all those who pray for us, and have prayed for us.  We are thankful. We just need a break from all of this and rest. 

much love 

Paris 

Happy Birthdays,,,

  Abigailes birthday was last Wednesday, she received a Birthday wish on the voice mail from her grandma in Chicago.  She received Birthday wishes from adopted aunts and friends on FB. The gift she received was an American Girl look alike from Target that dad, and I and Natascha bought for her. She loves it! She has dressed it and brushed her hair. She is really cute with this.  I could get angry and my feelings hurt and they initially do but I refuse to carry that hostility and bitterness toward family that I could.  We just don't have and haven't had for many years now money to buy extended family gifts and so that is how it is.  I'm hoping a child of Abigailes age, understands this , right?
  Nataschas birthday is next, this Wednesday.  We have some plans for her likely along the same lines that was Abigailes but we won't say what the gift is in case she gets notification on her page that I updated the blog:0)
  I want to stay in the blessing of God so therefore I choose to cast out bitterness. I love and give of what I have and do not judge people for what they give or don't give. I'll leave it at that.
  We are still doing therapy and treatments for Abigaile she is doing so well. She has gained weight, she is growing taller and not having seizures I can't tell you what a gift , a blessing this is.
  We are needing to make some decisions due to a lack of a job and our lease is up in December of this year.  We aren't sure where God wants us next.
  We start school in a couple of weeks again. We have taken a couple of breaks here and there  instead of doing school straight through this time.  Our life is just not traditional and we can't treat it as such.
  We were blessed by finding a new farm for veggies, which saves us a lot of money. People tell us that it is expensive but not according to what we have paid. I'm sure they are paying a fraction of what we are but we don't have a choice. We have a restricted diet for Abigaile and her health depends on it. We sacrifice what we have to and her health is provided for.  I also found a farm that has corn free meats, and goat milk and am thrilled about that. It was a $100.00 membership and the last time I ordered for two  Organic Chickens and a dozen eggs it was $78.00.  We had to order cheese from Arkansas through our trusty co op there because the vendor was going to charge $126.00 just to ship the cheese and that was $100.00 itself.  This way we had our co op at Ozark Natural Foods order it ($110..00 for the cheese) and then $60.00 to ship it. so a $170.00 for the only cheese we have found for our darling Abigaile.
  We still need prayers for someone to fix our van, that wasn't correct when we got it and we have bickered back and forth with the people who lied to us, and took money but still haven't fixed it. I would never buy anything or recommend these people to anyone ever, they are crooks! We have to find someone to fix the wiring in the van so that we can use the items we ordered for Abigaile. Ever wake up and just feel this can't be my life? Yep, I do that on a regular basis. I then see God in my life when my girls come sit beside me, or come to me and put their arms around me and just say I love you- then I know God is there.
  Please keep in mind our business, this is our income right now. It is not a lot as the therapy and treatments take up most of our day , school , and the day to day of having to make all of our meals from scratch (takes an incredible amount of time). We have to make all of Abigailes breads, tortillas, and pitas, any meats, all of her food is made from scratch and home made. She can't eat anything from the store, it has to be Organic raw vegetables and nothing near corn. It causes seizures. Trust me this is intense! It takes a lot of time to search recipes, take out ingredients and replace ingredients, do substitutions, then shop for it (can't just go to a store) this requires logistics from stores, ordering wholesale when we can, go to the vegetable farm and trusting they are disclosing everything to us, and searching new farms on the internet. It is a nightmare! It is time consuming. This is what helps my sweet little girl though and it is healthy for us too. She does not have seizures because of the careful planning, and dedication and sacrifice of our family for her.
  We also have to be cautious of clothing, chemicals that come into the house, cleaning products, soaps, and bath products.  We don't have a choice, we have to pick and choose what Abigailes needs, then it is what the rest of the family needs. The fund covers some items but not everything.  We are thankful for what we do get help with from the fund.  We still have to live as a family.
  We were blessed this past week with a helper for Abigaile, her name is Ms Lisa so I'm sure you will be hearing more about Ms. Lisa in the near future. She has been a big help even though our time is limited and our schedules have been hit and miss this past week but she still came through with flying colors. I'm sure she must think we are crazy.
  Well its time to start searching recipes, so that I can plan birthday party #2 for Wednesday so that we can all enjoy the cake - Natascha wants Daphnes ( which is street Greek) and Panda (wontons) for dinner for her birthday.  What a combo. Bless her Lord she has earned it.
  Please make sure to check out our facebook page and our blog for Urban Organic Studios for you Christmas and Birthday and all of your other gift needs. I will be putting items on shortly for sale.  I am working on a project now to be able to get low- no chemical bedding, clothing for children and home decorative items.  Please visit the blogs and facebook frequent.  I also will be opening an etsy store or another handmade in the USA store. I'll post when I do.
  We had a couple of very hot days last week, a thunderstorm and we also were in the blackout on the west coast when all the power went out for (unknown reasons).  It was another drill for us. What do we really need, what do we really have to have? We didn't have money for a hotel, but had to book one anyways as they had no idea what time the power would be back on and we can't go out to eat with Abigaile. Please pray that God gives us wisdom on how we can handle this from now on. We actually ended up with the electric coming back on close to midnight once we got packed and ready to go. They cancelled our reservation that was made after 8pm , but charged us for the room.
  We really just want a house already, with a yard, and breezes, we need a place for a greenhouse so that we can grow our own foods, and have chickens running around the yard. We know what goes in our food and where it comes from. A place for berry vines and bushes.  God says to ask for the desires of our heart, this would be it and for our business to flourish so that we can be self sustaining ...
  Thank you and bless you for your prayers, they are well received.  I am thanking the Lord for those who pray for us.

in His service
Paris

In Loving Memory of my daddy "Buck" Huber ....

In Loving Memory  of my daddy "Buck" Huber

Who Became A Perfect Rose In Heaven 

August 22, 1933- February 6, 1991

 Today August 22 was his birthday

Happy Birthday Daddy!

           Garden In Heaven

There Was A Special Garden In Heaven

Waiting For Someone As Wonderful As You

So, The Master Took Your Hand

And Gave You Eternal Life, Brand New

The Angels, We Can Hear Them Singing

Small Children Are Telling Jesus The News

There Is A New Rose In Heaven

Picked By God, That Precious Rose Is You

It’s Hard For Us To Let You Go

To Realize Your Life On Earth Is Through

But We’re Thankful For All The Memories

Seeds Of Love, Planted In Our Hearts

By A Man Who's Life Was Honest And True!

  My dad was helping me to pack and move one weekend.  He left that night to drive back home about an hour away from my house.  I got finished packing and moving for the night went to my new apartment. I was woken at about 3 am in the morning by the police officers ringing my doorbell. Imagine how stunned I was. I was told that my mom had called the police department and my dad had passed away.  I can't tell you how fast I drove home that night. The memories that ran through my head, the things I wish I could have done to make my dads life easier. He lived a very hard life.  I was told my dad came home, had a bowl of chili, went to climb in bed and fell over getting in bed with my mom.  My baby sister tried to do CPR to revive him. He died February 5th. We buried him on my birthday February 8th. 

  The only regret that I have, is that I never got to ask him, "daddy are you saved?"  It haunts me to this day. I had an older aunt who took care of my dad and his siblings that I talked with one time at a family gathering. It was my dads side of the family.  She told me she had a dream of my daddy, that he was in a white robe, and he was saying he was cold to her.  It was cold and dark she remembers. She asked me "if I knew if dad was saved?" I felt horrible, sick and scared to think he wasn't saved. It still haunts me to this day.  My dad was a good person, didn't know a stranger and would do anything to help anyone.  It didn't matter if they we were wealthy or not, dad had a huge heart.  My mom has said that she and my dad were members of a Southern Baptist church but I don't know what required membership they had. If we went to church when I was a kid, it was with friends or my nana.

  I pray daddy that you knew Jesus, it breaks my heart that I never ask you. It haunts me day and night to think that you tried to take such good care of us and it was so difficult.  I wish things could have been different. If I had known then, what I do now I would have prayed more and would have made sure that you knew what God has in store for us.  

I love you daddy with all my heart, I miss you daddy so much it grieves me that you never got to see my husband, my beautiful girls.  They miss their poppie and don't even know you. 

  Please make sure that if you know God, ask everyone around you, if they know God.  If they don't please take a few minutes to tell them about Him. It is a small sacrifice of time, and effort that we can do. Look what God did for us, He gave His only Son so that our sins have been forgiven and we have eternal life (John 3:16). 

Psalm 27:4 One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple.   Thank you Lord for you are good all the time... Selah with love your daughter of Zion

The Splendor of life and God...

Hope everyone had a good weekend, it was good here. It was a celebration of more than one way which is always a blessing from God!  

  We celebrated Abigailes dads birthday on Friday, after therapy and a few things we had to do. That truly is a celebration of giving life thank you God! 

  We also celebrated Abigailes life.  It was 7 years ago on Allens birthday that we spent a very long night in the hospital with Abigaile who had a 54 minute seizure this being the second seizure after a very serious adverse reaction to a vaccine.  It was a very long night, it was a truly scary night.  

  We had gone about our day as normal with a 7 month old infant, as normal as that can be.  We had some friends over for dinner, to play some music and do to a Bible study. I'll never forget Twelve ordinary Men. There was nothing ordinary about this night. We started out by my friends husband who said he was like doubting Thomas, the thoughts going through my head that we must change that doubt into no doubt at all. I remember playing the piano and hearing my Abigaile cry out, my husband turn around and Abigaile in the bouncer was sounding like she was choking. We knew she didn't have anything to choke on. She started turning a pale color, and then a bluish color. I ran upstairs to get our suction bulb and suctioned her out, but she seemed to be getting worse. We called 911. The ambulance came and took us away to the hospital my baby on oxygen and non responsive. We spent the next grueling hour in a hospital trauma room not knowing what would happen next. We prayed. Our baby, still non responsive. Natascha who had been fine earlier seemed to be running a 104 degree temperature. We prayed more, started calling other people and pastors to pray. 

  The ER Dr left the room, silent, and shook his head. There was dead silence in that room and no one, no nurse, no Dr - no one was telling us what was going on. They didn't know. The Dr insinuated that she would not make it after a seizure like that. We continued praying. 

  We would end up spending the next couple of days having these episodes each time a new IV was hung, or medication was given. No one not even the Pediatrician knew what was happening. We felt so alone but knew God was faithful and put everything we had into Him and His hope for us, for Natascha, and for Abigaile. 

  We went home and had a consult at the end of the week at Arkansas Childrens Hospital in Little Rock. We didn't know at the time, but this incident would change the rest of our lives. 

We eventually would rule everything else out and find out 2 very long years after that the incident that Abigaile had was a grand mal seizure. We would also find out she had a reaction to her 5 month old Pertussis vaccine, and feel it might have actually happened sooner, maybe even at birth with the Hepatitis B. We could prove this one though which is what we did with the grace of God. We give glory to God for He brought us through that horrible time, and many valleys since. We give glory to God for the healing He is still continuing to do in her body even today. We are blessed beyond measure. 

  I could be angry or bitter by what happened to my child and honestly there are days that I just sob because I don't want to see any child suffer, but I wake up and I hear her mumble, and I see her big beautiful blue eyes, and she says "mommy I wuv u". God is it so worth it! God you are awesome above anything at all! God I give you glory! 


 It is our year of Jubilee and we have a lot to be thankful for! This will be a year of  freedom, a time of restoration, and a season of preparation.  In the year of Jubilee, debts are to be forgiven and lands returned to their rightful owners.  In the year of Jubilee, any enslaved by one would be set free.  During this holy year, injustice would be righted, oppression would cease, and the people would experience safety and fruitfulness in their land. We claim it, and we receive it !

  love,
your daughter of Zion 


My beautiful Abigaile: In the Bible you name has meaning of "Strength", even in man's world you name means "Joy". You live up to both my beautiful girl. I thank God for being so faithful to His Word. 

Having a hard time seeing your blessings in all of this?

 The church that Jesus is coming back for; we are all calling ourselves Christians but we don't always act like it. I just listened to 1 Cor. 1:10-17 and it talks about Paul and talking about all the bickering of the church: 


10 I appeal to you, brothers and sisters,[a] in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another in what you say and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be perfectly united in mind and thought. 11 My brothers and sisters, some from Chloe’s household have informed me that there are quarrels among you. 12 What I mean is this: One of you says, “I follow Paul”; another, “I follow Apollos”; another, “I follow Cephas[b]”; still another, “I follow Christ.”
13 Is Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for you? Were you baptized in the name of Paul? 14 I thank God that I did not baptize any of you except Crispus and Gaius, 15 so no one can say that you were baptized in my name. 16 (Yes, I also baptized the household of Stephanas; beyond that, I don’t remember if I baptized anyone else.) 17 For Christ did not send me to baptize, but to preach the gospel—not with wisdom and eloquence, lest the cross of Christ be emptied of its power. 


  What is a shame is that most, think this is the church He is referring to "inside the walls" or "box". It isn't. How can we ever be effective as a witness for Christ if we are bickering. I also read a passage on forgiveness as that has been heavy on my heart, trying to show forgiveness, which in turn causes bitterness, anger, spite and a lot of unhealthy feelings. If we do not forgive our brothers and sisters in Christ, God is clear He will not forgive us.


Matthew 6:14-15: For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.
 But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

 I so don't want that. I want to be forgiven. Then if we don't forgive it sows other unhealthy seeds of anger, bitterness, and strife once again in the body of Christ. There is so much of this. God is judging America for the decisions we make and how we treat each other. It is sad to me to see so many that if we would work together and love one another (I am not referring to the new age modern teaching church) but agape such as Yahweh shows to us we could move those mountains we like to speak about. People block their blessings, their healing, their prosperity when they do this. I am not to say it has never happened to me, it has and I have recognized it, I beg forgiveness. 


So, you want to know how to forgive- sometimes you have been hurt very badly or you have dealt with mistrust. It may be a close friend or not so close. It may be your child, a sibling, your spouse, a co worker. You should treat them all the same. FORGIVENESS.  Here's how:

Make the decision to forgive, regardless of your feelings. They will eventually catch up with the whole forgiveness concept, but maybe not today.

Pray that God will give you His Grace to do it. God's grace is simply His power to do something with ease that you would struggle with if you try to do it on your own. Learning to forgive definitely requires God's grace.

Pray for the person who hurt you. Ouch. This is probably the hardest part of the whole concept. But when you pray for that person, God can reach into the situation and work.

LEAVE the situation and person alone. Don't try to avenge yourself. Ugh. Yeah right...it would be so much easier if you could just do some awful thing to make them look bad or feel bad or something! Don't do anything. Let God do what He's going to do and you focus on moving forward, doing whatever God tells you to do. Forgive and forget.

Dear heavenly Father, we know we are sinners we also know we are your children.  God our prayer is that you lead us to walk uprightly and in Your Grace, Your presence and Your ways! In all ways God we acknowledge you we will seek you all of our days.  Amen and God bless you...

A Cloud with a silver lining...

You can't always tell by the cloud what kind of storm is brewing. God prepares us for all things in His Word but it doesn't mean it wont be difficult.
I was reading last night a book by Kenneth Hagin who I love his teaching. It was talking about healing. Is your healing immediate or does it take awhile? He said some people manifest healing right away and while others manifest it over time. You hear in Jesus ministry about healing after healing that happens immediately. You also hear about the ten lepers. This is the one that grabbed my attention. It is Luke 17:14 it is about the ten lepers who were healed as they went.
The ten lepers were healed as they went. The Bible also says that under the ministry of Jesus, the noblemans son" began to amend" from the hour Jesus prayed for him (John 4). It means he began to get better from the hour Jesus ministered to until he was healed.
The Bible also says to lay hands on the sick and they will recover (Mark 16:18) sometimes it works that way. We need to know healing is not always instant. When it is thank God for it but sometimes its gradual.
Sometimes healing can even be a curse because once the person is healed they walk away and forget God. People who are gradually healed cab see they get better and better as they walk in God and the knowledge becomes invaluable wealth to them.
Don't give up on the promise of healing it is in the word of God! God bless you!

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Our Faith journey to California - 2010

December 25, 2010 - our new home Laguna Niguel, California.  We may not understand why or everything God does
but He does with purpose and reason. We have a reason to Worship in every season! 

November 2010. Abigaile, this is the reason we are here. We have faith
and this child is being healed. It is not the treatment that is healing her, but God.

My sweet family after a very long trip
we just need rest. 

Laguna Beach, California October 27, 2010
We have arrived @ our destination. 

We know we are here for this season. This little
girl and the call of God upon our lives. It may seem dark @ times, but the living water (God & His Word) is in control!

Does this not look like the end of the earth? We have to be at the
top of the world ... very strange feeling just past the Az rest area in the
desert. 

Grand Canyon, Arizona
Family time- it was really cold!

Look at this rainbow-in the clouds. God is there
and His promise is that He will never leave or forsake us.

In Az. when you follow the light (God) there may be some storms that
may try to impede on your journey. If you stay on the road that is narrow
He will keep you safe and guide you there. 

Allen & his girls on the way to
California @ Cracker Barrel. 

Abigaile & Natascha @ a hotel on the way to California.

        

Arizona rest area. We felt so helpless at this point.
We knew we were close, but we still had a long ways
to go. We also we far away from our mutual home since 1997.

God has many different gifts, and forms of transportation.

God will even let you go through the desert
@ times, but know He is still there.

We left everything except the few things
on this truck and our family & headed West.

This was our last hotel on the road
we were really excited at this point. Excited to know
God has something in store for all of us.

continued...

We know we are blessed and in His favor! We see this sweet little girl Abigaile thriving daily and that makes it all worthwhile!  I will post some pictures of our pictures on the trip to California I hope that you enjoy them. There are so many more but these had some meaning to them for us.  We have literally traveled from one coast to the other this year. Would I have guessed that I would have left friends and family to follow this journey of faith... no I definitely would not have guessed. It is very difficult to have friends with a child with special needs.  It is also difficult to have family and friends who talk about all  the fun and vacations when there is no vacation for our family, it is heart wrenching to have your child say "why do we not get a vacation"?  Please think about it.  This was a need, a necessity to come here  and not a vacation.
  Thank you and God bless you for praying...

we are here now what?

    so... we are in sunny Southern California now and adjusting to the culture shock! It is beautiful out here and winter and 75 degrees... who can argue with that.
  We are getting into a routine and working on getting the house unpacked and getting it into order. It is nice to be in a house again instead of a vacation rental or apartment like we have live for the past four years now. It has been a nightmare at times. Our lives have forever been changed by this injury to our child and most days are clearer than mud but we will make it through with God He is our rock.
  We are still doing TMS with great results but notice the heat sensitivity as well as the food sensitivities are still there. It is a hell that we wake up in daily sometimes. Abigaile is doing extremely well with the treatments though and we have had no notable seizures.  We will press on.  We are tired and much in need of a break. We have lost family and friends along the way.  We know God has a bigger purpose and that is what we choose.  I was typing this from my phone and have had to redo a couple of times for the rest of the story, read continuation....