October update - we will not be shaken

  We have left Southern California for now.  It is with sad hearts though. We have met some really awesome people there. We mostly met some really awesome pioneers in the Holistic and Alternative Medical treatments.  Wow. I love the entrepreneurial attitude it is just where I need to be.
 
  We really have to trust God on this one though.  We were running out of funds as it is extremely expensive to live in Southern California.  The rent is very high and when our last lease ran out we moved to a hotel temporary so that we could keep Ms Abi in therapy and treatments.  I dislike hotels.  We all dislike hotels.  We were able to become a fixture at The Residence Inn because they had a kitchen but I will tell you hotel living is not for me.  I traveled enough when I worked away from home before family and kids.

  We had Speech therapy in Northern California that I had to change the appointment on several times.  The problem was getting a hotel with a full kitchen. So I had to cancel.  We won't be able to get a hotel for the solid month that we need for Speech Therapy at The Swain Center until after January. We are all really bummed about this.

  We had another appointment for the family to have dental appointments.  I had planned a few months in advance to go to the dentist out of state once we finished the Speech Therapy. This was suppose to happen in November so I made a hotel reservation for the appointment and we decided to go early.  I don't know if we can get in early or not.  It has been nice to have some time away from appointments.

  We may stay here until after the first of the year. We are also in the process of moving out of the state of California as it was suppose to be a temporary trial of our daughters medical care.  It has been fun meeting all the great people we have done therapy and treatments with. It has been fun driving and doing a history lesson for the girls and seeing the coastline of California. It is just beautiful. Its warm year round and there are no seasons.

  We also experienced a couple of small 4.1 earthquakes while there I can do without that. I was going to post some pictures but blogger won't let me upload them from my computer any longer and I don't care to store pictures on the internet any longer. I am in the process of starting our family blog and we are purchasing the domain so as soon as that happens I'll be forwarding that information on to you.

Please continue that thank God for His loving favor on our family. Thank Him for protection over our family. Thank God for His provision for us. We are in His service!

with love

The Home on Cantata Drive -

  Well we have moved on.  The move from the house on Cantata Drive seemed to be a curse, but ended as a blessing.  Abi and I (Paris) are highly allergic to mold and well unless you have a mold allergy you just really can't understand.
  I will post photos later but for the most part I'm just glad to finally be moved.  We started having mold issues with mold growing and we were complaining last year to the landlord. His solution was to spray it with bleach, paint some kilz on it and cover it with white contact paper.  We notified him of mold in the bathrooms upstairs and downstairs in the kitchen.  Literally all of our belongings are ruined and we are having to get rid of them. Everything.  We hope to at least be able to selvage some of our school items. It is just too expensive to replace. However it we have issues moving to our next place those items will have to go as well.
  We ended up because of the mold that it took us an extra 5 (five) days to move.  The landlord had workers coming in through out our packing as well as realtors.  It was more than difficult getting anything packed or moved because of this.  We couldn't keep the air filtered with the Hepa filter that we have so Abi was having more seizures than normal.
  The final week of moving while we were trying to pack Abi was having seizures so we kept her and Natascha in the van  in the Hepa filter and watching movies and heating up food in the van.  It was just miserable for all of us. We were able to get a hotel but it was basically a place to come and sleep and go back at it the next day to move.  We also had to pay for help just to get someone to help Allen with furniture and move items so we were not staying any longer than needed.
   The day we finished moving the girls were eating in the car and Allen and I in the house.  The workers came to paint the living room so all of our things we had packed we then had to move with in the house so the workers didn't get paint on anything.  This took even more time.  The landlord, also decided to bring his family , his wife, and both of his children ( I am assuming it was his children I have never met his family) as well as another man and woman. They decided to take lawn chairs and their picnic baskets and food and put food and their goodies on the table outside.  Then the owner decided to fill the pool with more water ( he ran the water for over an hour, maybe longer) then his children and family got into the pool and played in the pool until it was starting to get dark. They spent hours in the pool.  My girls feelings were hurt so bad they cried.  They wanted to be playing also but we couldn't as we have no help and Abi can't go into a public pool because of the chemicals of the chlorine and sunscreens which is why we rented a house with a pool.
  He told us to take care of our child (Abi) earlier in the week , he didn't seem to care she was having seizures he seemed angry that it was taking so long to move.  Well thats what happens when you have no help and your moving with a special needs child.  I just can't believe that someone could be so mean as to do what they did.  It angers me.  He also allowed the adult man who came with him to come in our house (we were paying rent) and ask for toilet paper?  This is just seriously un called for and rude.   He wanted to sell the house and apparently was going to do what he had to and force us out of the house by not fixing things. I just hope and pray whoever buys the house is smart enough to see the mold and hold him accountable for it. We also found out that he charged us for 7 (seven ) days instead of 5 (five) days.  He also called himself a Christian.  I'm sorry I just don't see it in his actions.
God my prayer is this : Matthew 7:5 "You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.  * My prayer is that I never be this hateful or mean to someone or anyone.  It is also my prayer that my children never see me act that way to another.  God please shelter us from mean spirited, callous people .

  I have forgiven them because my Father says He will not forgive me if I do not forgive them.  It is wrong what they did and I will give it to God and let God deal with it.  Matthew 6:15 But if you do not forgive others, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions.

We are still in the hotel so that we can continue treatments and therapies for Abi.  We are working on trying to do a fundraiser so that we can extend our stay to help with hotel and other expenses while here.  

  In the next few months once this set of treatments and therapies are over we will be heading East to Texas.  

God bless you,

Homemade Peach Ice Cream

Homemade Peach Ice Cream

I saw this on an Organic Farm website.  It looks so yummy!  Is it summer time and time for Ice Cream yet? This would go delish with some home made Peach Cobbler or Peach Crumble !  I so love the wonderful fruits of summer and fresh veggies!

Happy Fathers Day !!!

  Well with all the moving, packing and disorganized chaos that we have right now. I decided to do something early for Allen for Fathers Day.  He made a comment a while back that he misses going fishing.  Yes, I can relate to that I really miss doing anything for myself.  Hasn't happened for a long time and you know what people laugh at that but really look at yourself in the mirror before you judge me.
  I spend a lot of time with my child's care and that means not just physical care but administrative time as well that no one sees.  I know what it is like not to get away.

  He got me thinking because I normally don't have a problem with buying something for him.  We really did not have the funds to do it though as we had a lot of expenses for Abi this month with Dr.s and my Dr.s visits etc, eye appts, etc still not done but it will have to wait until we have insurance again.

  Here is my post for what I did with the girls :

Tuesday via mobile

He's out on the bright and sunny Pacific Ocean today, he didnt know where he was going as he arrived to the harbor at the crack of dawn in a taxi. He went to check in and when he did in envelope #2 he found out he had an early Fathers Day gift to go sport fishing! I got a text a little while ago that he caught the first fish on the boat! Could not think of anyone better for the daddy of my girls love this man to bits! Happy early Fathers Day Allen i love you!

Well that about says it all.  He had a good time , he spent 9 hours on a boat on the Pacific Ocean.  It was cloudy with June gloom and so the fish weren't biting.  He did catch 4 fish and was the first on the boat to catch a fish.  That was kind of cool.  There were none of them large enough to keep though.  

This was interesting to plan to say the least.  The van he drives to work died a couple of days before and I could not get Abi up at 4 am to drive him to the harbor.   A lack of sleep has provoked a seizure before and once she is awake, she is awake.  So I called a cab to take him to the harbor.  I booked the cab online , bought his fishing license on line (had to take a picture of his Drivers License # while he was in bed one night) and then even rented fishing tackle and poles online for him.  Here is where I sent him : http://www.danawharf.com .  

So I hope he had fun!  They have all sorts of fun and cool things to do at the Dana Point Harbor.  

He was suppose to take Nataschas camera and batteries to take photos for those of us who didn't get to go that day. I wanted to see what it was like out on the Pacific Ocean. I think he said he took the camera but forgot the battery.  Anyways, no pictures for the rest of us.  

  Here is the posting I did when we picked him up that day.  He doesn't really look very happy but said he took a dramamine when he got on the boat as he was afraid he would get motion sick.  He was also a little sunburned but they had drinks, food and everything on the boat. 

My lobster off the boat 

 So happy he got to experience this unique Fathers Day gift.  Happy Fathers Day Allen your the best dad in the world! 

love you Allen, 

from your girls 

This is why we are where we are at ...

  We are in the process of wrapping things up, tying loose ends and packing to move on.  God has been good to us here in Southern California.  We have done a lot of growing here, a lot of crying , and a lot of stretching beyond our faith. God has gotten us through it even though we have not left yet. 

  We will be sad to leave but really at this point there just are no other options and lets face the facts we need to live.  We still have some tough choices ahead and the whole reason we were here is, well she is in the picture above.

  Read about Abigaile on www.Abigailestory.blogspot.com.  She is an amazing little girl !  

  We were faced with a couple of months ago now that owner of the rental that we lease needed to sell his home.  He asked if we wished to purchase it and really with the medical care, travel, therapy and treatments we really don't have time to care much for a home.  

  We traveled and lived 1600 miles to care for our child who has been vaccine injured.  I will tell you we are really tired.  I am so tired that tired has been redefined for me.  We have met many wonderful and caring providers here for Abigailes care. We have also met many knowledgable providers here.  It is not easy though I will tell you to pack everything you own, move it 1600 miles and try to start a temporary life.  I say temporary life because that child, therapy and treatments consume your days, weeks, months and years and your lives.  It is a mixed feeling of emotions that we have right now as we have sat reminiscing over the past three years.  We have seen our children grow in milestones , developmentally and spiritually.  We also saw a little girl who was given a poor prognosis and we have watched her to make leaps and bounds. Glory be to God for that!  God has done that!

  

  When we were faced with having to move I started looking for another lease home.  We really love Abigaile doing so well here and believe there are many factors in why she is doing well. We also believe that she will do well in a number of places we just have to be cautious moving to areas with high chemicals , pollution, smog, pollens, etc.  We also have to be able to have at our disposal fresh Organic food. I am not talking labeled Organic I seriously mean Organic the real dirt!  

  I searched for homes and I noticed that housing prices had elevated from hundreds of dollars to a thousand or more for some of the same homes as when we moved to this house. This happened over 2 years.  We were being asked if we would like to raise the rent funds to guarantee the homes, no thank you I don't gamble.  There were so many dirty games being played by other realtors it was obvious to me these were games. We couldn't even rent a home with guaranteed funds.  We were denied many homes.  We finally took that to mean it was time to go.  It took 2 years for Allen to get a job and he has only been there six months.  We were hoping to be able to transfer with his company so that we could keep benefits, but it doesn't look like that will happen.  

  We had several things to happen making our decision.  The past week our van that Allen drives to work he works about 30 minutes away. The van needs new brakes, brake pads, shoes and rotors.  It was also over-heating.  We decided to take it to the shop just down the street at village center and we found out that the head gasket was going.  Well to make a long story short if it isn't fixed it means a new motor, and we already know that the transmission is slipping as well. With this list of repairs, we don't have the money to fix it. If we did have the money to fix it, even though the van is paid for and has been for a few years now.  The van is not even worth it. It has almost 150,000 miles on it.  

  I can't even go into the rest of everything.  It doesn't even seem real.  So now for the rest of the story. 

  We will be moving, Soon!  We are in the process of moving our belongings into storage and trying to sell other things or give them away.  We will then be moving to a hotel room with kitchen so that we can prepare meals for Ms. Abigaile.  We are staying close so that we can finish up some therapy and treatments for Ms. Abigaile over the next couple of months.  After that we will be moving long distance.  We have found a state we like, has a good job potential as the transfer has not come through at Allens company.  There are more plans for the future as well but it really is a lot to put in here. 

What we NEED!  We desperately need a place to live.  We are so tired of renting other peoples stuff and moving. We would like to have a home in this new state and prefer no apartments but a home with some land.  We would like to eventually provide a respite for special needs families, teach classes and give spiritual support.  

  We also NEED a place to stay in Southern California as we will be coming back a couple of times per year for therapy and treatments.  Abigaile needs desperately to continue these treatments and therapy as well. We won't have insurance once we leave Allens company, again. I know God can provide it and He will and if He doesn't God can provide the monetary cash to fix what we need fixed.  But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:19. He always has.  We would like to have a bus, renovated even if we have to renovate ourselves so that we can keep Abigaile safe.  It is a nightmare for us to stay in hotels, vacation rentals just simply because of all the chemicals, the bedding from detergents, dry cleaning chemicals, there are so many things. I am truly praying for a bus.  We can travel to California for treatment and therapy and have all of Abigailes school, and interior that she would be safe from all the junk.  We also would be able to store her food in a freezer and be able to prepare it without worry of cross -contamination and or meals spoiling.  Try taking 30-60 days of food and keeping it cold driving half way across the US. If it spoils there is no stopping to buy more. We have to special order her meats, and can only buy vegetables that are organic and from the farm.  Believe it or not, the foods that you buy at whole foods and many other organic and natural retailers my child can not eat.  She has seizures. Which means usually cross-contamination.  We also can not be around scented items, or scented people. Laundry detergents, there are so many things that cause her to have seizures because of the chemicals. A bus would be great we can control her environment, her food, her well being.  It just makes sense. We need funds for this and maybe we will be looking to raise funds for this. It would so much be a blessing for our family.  

  We will also NEED another job.  I will be taking clients for Nutritional counseling at least by this time next year, possibly sooner. It depends on how quickly we can get moved and settled. 

We are thankful for your prayers. These are the prayer needs that we have.

God bless you and keep looking up ! 

We gotta have Faith.

  Okay enough said.  Well not quite.  We came to California over 2 years ago for our little sweetie.  We couldn't get adequate care for what she had a need for in Northwest Arkansas.  Her Doc when we met him was in Texas, then moved to Ft Lauderdale Fla., then when we looked at Ft Lauderdale Fla Doc decided he was moving to S. Cal. which is his home.

 We packed and moved! So here is what it was like in Rogers, Arkansas the Spring before we

Took a trip to Jacksonville Florida in March to see Dr. Jerry it looked like this in Jacksonville (it was actually warmer in NW Arkansas where we lived than it was in Jacksonville Fla.)

It was sooooo stinking cold we wore jackets the entire time...  We stayed a few days after the long drive as we can't fly due to Abi.s issues (multiple reasons).  We then spent a few hours with Dr. Jerry at his office working on Abi.s care plan and then decided while we were there we should spend a day or two at :

It was not enough time with Mickey or Minnie or Epcot Center , but we had to come back to reality : (

We thought that we would take our darling little girl who had just gotten her first Kidwalk for a test drive at one of the local malls. She was so cute, first time she had ever walked independent of someone trying to help her.

We came home after our trip and had to make the decision of how we would be able to provide adequate health services, therapy, treatments, advice and treatment plans from Physicians. We decided we would move to Ft Lauderdale!  Soooo. we checked the job markets ( same jobs lots of transportation, project management, data management, etc) housing expenses typical to comparable to NW Arkansas, home school not a problem. We were so excited so the next teleconference we had with Doc we told him. He told us that he was making plans to move home, (where's home?) Southern California-
  well
          alrighty
         
                    then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    Oh my goodness !!!!!! is what I was really saying now what?
So my husband and I talked about it, he had a decent job, good benefits, (not so good hours with serious hour abuse by the company) and he could take the Family Medical Leave act to help us to try this. We wanted to look at this short term. We were not sure the treatments would work but we do trust Dr. J. so we prayed about it. Allen spoke to his Wachter company that he put a lot of time and effort into and they told him they just so happened to have a company that is in Irvine, close to where we would be. They said go get settled make sure your daughter will do well and we have a position there that we can work you in to.  Allen called them every week for three weeks (which is how long it took to pack, drive and move a child with special needs- it was a nightmare thank God I did not do the trip with just the girls and I. I am determined we would have never got here!). It was such a long trip.
  We stayed in a cute (but dirty for what cost) vacation rental that the couple who rented to us ( a urologist and his wife) they came to meet us the first night we came to town. I asked if it would be okay to park the moving truck overnight. She assured me it would be and we would take our belongings to the storage the next day. They were out for the night and dropped by in their porche stopped to say hello (because they live down the street in Three Arch Bay) she is drinking and wearing no shoes (very friendly) and he is in the porche, takes one look at our moving truck and drives off with out her. I am certain they must have looked at us and thought we were the Beverly Hillbilllies !

my little cutie patootie at the vacation rental.

At Dr. Jin's office doing TMS.... which by the way stopped the seizures enough so she could function. She would sometimes have close to a hundred seizures per day... not always they varied depending on the allergens she would come in contact with and different triggers...

we spent as much down time as we could just looking at the beautiful California coastline.

We have celebrated tea party birthdays...

We have walked on the beach barefoot- first place I've gone to the beach on my birthday in February.  It always too cold back home in Arkansas to do anything. My birthday has always been miserable . Even here on my birthday it has rained. 

we have visited Dr. Jerry a few times, and thank you especially to the Kartzinel family for giving us a warm- welcoming for Thanksgiving and making us feel so welcome while we were here.



We have had so many awesome times and such great memories here.  We did not have the means to do this trip ourselves, in fact we were short the money for gas when we came. We had a couple of families that blessed us with just what we needed prior to when we left. God puts special people in our lives when we need them doesn't He?

I write this entry today, happy because of the progress I have seen with my little pumpkin.  I also have a great deal of some sadness.  While we love it here in Southern California we won't be able to stay here with out a miracle.  We are both employed but not making enough money to stay here and the home that we are currently living in the owner can sell his home right now in this market and make the most money that he can.  We gave him our blessings.

We have looked for homes now close to 2 maybe 3 months. The rental market prices are being elevated by all the people dumping their homes and running to rent. So, that leaves a minus of homes available to rent in the market. We have put 3-4 applications on homes and have been turned down because of our bad credit history due to all the medical debt that was not covered when our daughter had her vaccine reaction. We were lied to and told if the debt was related to the vaccine injury it would be paid, if we had loans from family so long as it was attributed to the vaccine injury it would be paid. I assure you, it was not.  I so wish I had not trusted anyone.

We have to move on. We have come here met many wonderful people. We watched both of our little girls grow and came here with 2 little girls and are leaving now with one little girl and a teenager. It has been a growing experience for our entire family. This rehab business is very tiring but so rewarding.  We were able to be blessed this past year even though doing lots of therapy and treatments we had a pool that we could come home and spend a little time in on a few of our days off.   We have about another month before we will be moved. Where do we go, we aren't sure yet.

When we go we may not have a job because after looking for full time employment for two years Allen can't transfer or apply for other positions in his company as he has not been there long enough to do so until after we have to move out.  I don't think its wise to rent an apartment and get stuck in a lease just to see if he can transfer or apply for employment elsewhere. We are looking at a couple of options we will see where God wants us. We also have some credit for some of our therapy. We won't have time to do anything prior to moving it is going to take all the effort I have to get packed so that we can move again. I'm pretty sure my children will be very diverse from all of this experience.

It is just another
DAY 
in Paradise !!!! 

Jesus Culture " Break Every Chain"

  I've listened to this song over and over tonight. The past couple of weeks have really been a testimony of learning to walk and not crawl.  What I mean is that the past few weeks I have dealt with some issues in my extended family , not immediate family that have really made me humble myself before the throne of God. When God speaks of family turning against family and watching it happen in your own family it makes my guts churn and makes me sick!  I can not believe that someone can raise a child from infancy. It was done with the best of intentions to love this child and take care of him. When my dad passed away he left with the words to my mom to "if anything happens to me promise me you will take care of this child". My mom took those words to heart. She did before my dad passed away, and afterwards even at the expense of her own flesh and blood children.  Some of us were not after her things, her stuff, or any of her inheritance, we just want her love, her time and some attention. I am not saying not to do these things for your grandchildren but when you do it at the expense of giving this (golden child) everything it is a dangerous thing especially when an attorney only wants money for doing the job and doesn't look at the long term implications of what if that child (whose been given everything ) turns on that grandmother and has twice now kicked her out of her own home that she gave to him to make a point to those of us who were looking out for her best interest.  Let me make it very clear I am not belittling my mom she did a noble thing by raising a grandchild.  I just have to say think of the implications of something like this and get a reputable attorney and hopefully the attorney will be wise enough to make sure that grandparent who is so giving won't be taken advantage of like our scenario.  

  The grandchild became jealous of everyone in the family. Has used people in the family. This past January he decided to push my mom and I got a phone call late at night that she was being pushed out of her own house because of another nephew who was with her.  I don't know how long she remained homeless but owning a home and being pushed into going to rent an apartment is just disgusting to me. When we spoke to the nephew on the phone he informed us "not to contact him any further or he would call the police". Hmmmm. We got another phone call a few weeks ago with the same scenario where this nephew had the other nephew arrested after telling him he could stay there with my mom. 

  SO fast forward. This woman who has helped her grandson, given him everything he wanted has kicked her from her own home not only did he kick her out of her own home he also stole everything she had. You see she's very frugal, she buys at garage sales because she can find the same quality there and not pay the mark up. The only funds she has coming in is from social in-security.  The nephew wouldn't even allow her to get her clothing, or the few belongings that she has managed to buy at garage sales over the past few years. I find it shameful and disgusting. I find it more shameful and disgusting that the local police department told her when she asked if she could get the few ratty clothes she has - no man your nephew said he's going to bed he's tired. They did not take a police report from her.  There was no police report or anything when he pushed her out the door. I'm so disgusted at so many people and our law enforcement that I don't even know what to say. This did not happen in California it happened in Northwest Arkansas. My nephew who was staying with her, went to jail because of something from his childhood (another unfortunate situation) and my mom well she went to a homeless shelter.  She called my sister and she and her son went to pick her up.  

  If you think that we are not living in the last days...  how do you explain this?  There are no words I have for this punk except one day he will meet his maker and He will take care of it. In the meantime, I'm sitting in California 1600 miles away and not sure what I could do if I were even closer and once again because of the past abuse from this punk ( I don't claim that punk as family).  His abuse continues.  How can family, our system or anyone else just sit around and allow this to happen and do nothing?  It amazes me it makes me sick to my stomach to think that this kind of treatment can be allowed.  

  If you are so inclined, and so kind to give your grandchildren something please make sure that you have something in place that they can not kick you out of your own home and steal from you. It does happen. I just watched it happen over the past few years and I told her when she did it that it would happen. Now she is paying to consequence for it . Homeless. The scary thing is that he has called himself a Christian and to me that is not Christ like behavior.  

  I'm honestly praying for this kid to repent. He see's that he has done nothing wrong and has moved his girlfriend in to my moms house. It will always be my moms house in my eyes. You see she has no where to go now and likely no one will really do anything about it.  We can all break the chains with the help of Jesus.  With out the help of Christ we are nothing. 

  I continue to pray daily and several times per day for God to break the strongholds, and break the chains in my life.  I am work in progress. Please pray for my momma and pray for those of us who have tried to help her. She has been abused to the point now that she see's those of us trying to help her as hurting her. Pray for her chains to be broken and her heart to be healed. Pray for God to supply another home for her.