Sunday, June 21, 2020

Happy Father’s Day to my daddy in heaven

My Exodus 20:12. My momma and daddy during their  younger years.


    I will update later if I can pull photos from my external files. I didn’t have a camera or a fancy phone to take photos of my mom and dad. I thought an instant Polaroid was great!
   I love my daddy always have. My daddy was the kindest man I have ever met in my entire life and world even to today.  It took a lot to make my daddy angry. He literally would give to others when he didn’t have anything to give himself.
  The reason I posted my photo with my momma and daddy is that my dad was not only kind and generous but he loved his family. He and my momma both had family and friends alike that were not always family friendly with our family. I observed this as a young child growing up and admire my mom and my dad for sticking with one another no matter who or what tried to tear them down. They were inseparable and my momma even after my daddy passed away knew no one could ever compare to dad.
  Daddy put his wife first ( momma) and me and my sisters and then everyone else. I’m positive he got conflict for that but he stood his ground. He wasn’t educated in the system and was never given a formal schooling opportunity because he had to work on the family farm. He then went on to support his wife, our momma and our family however he could.
  Daddy was not to proud to watch us girls- he cooked, cleaned and whatever he needed to do to help momma out. They helped one another’s. Daddy never asked for mommas help but he taught us some valuable lessons about changing tires, filling fuel and oil and maintenance on a car. He always spoke favorably of momma and never spoke an unkind word about her - to her- in front of us kids or to his family or friends. Daddy never spoke anything unkind and never disrespected momma by talking to us girls about momma ever. Those types of relationships were unheard of and dads or moms were never friends or secret confidants of  their children- they were adult and parents.
  We knew that daddy and momma always stood together so we could commit nothing and we couldn’t ever use one against the other- and we didn’t attempt it.
  We never disrespected momma because daddy would have whipped our behinds. Daddy had a great deal of trust for momma and for us girls. He never allowed others to talk down or negative toward momma or us girls.
  Daddy is in Heaven but us girls knew the love and respect daddy had for us and our family by how he treated momma.

Happy Father’s Day daddy I sure have missed you. You were the best daddy ever that anyone could ever want and I miss you and your presence more than ever. I also wish daddy that you could have met my family and I especially wish you could have met our daughters . You would have loved them and respected them too and you would have shown them nothing but the love and kindness that was your natural DNA. Like the mind and heart of God.

With love,
Your daughter ❤️


Fathers day June 21, 2020 - 1128 days alienation - estrangement



Happy Fathers Day 
to Allen, our girls dad.  I pray that Allens day is made complete by being able to share this day with our daughters on this day that recognizes Allen as dad. 


All of our actions are all a reflection of the God or god that we serve.  
This was in 2011 or so - we would go download at the beach almost every day at dinner time.  Allen and I would have a glass of wine at the beach.  I would have dinner ready in a picnic and as soon as allen would come home we loaded the van and headed to the beach to eat dinner and watch the sunset at dinner time.  I thought this was the best time , the most relaxing time. This was our family time at the beach.  Allen with Abigaile. 
At the Grand Canyon on the way to California.  It was November when we left Arkansas to make the Journey to California to make our little girl well.  We weren't sure which treatments, therapies etc would work- which ones wouldn't. But we ( myself, allen, natascha and Abigaile ) were all committed to another to help our little injured soldier.   I don't have photos of the girls and I.  Its odd that I have a lot of photos of allen and the girls.  Ive asked for photos - Im not a selfie person but I would like photos of the girls and I.  I thought I would throw this one in - this is OUR FAMILY.  Sadly there are friends and family that actually PRIDE themselves in destroying our family.  Natascha, me, Abigaile and Allen. 
In  our first adventure on the way to California - to do recommended therapy and treatments suggested by Abigailes Dr. Kartzinel.  Who followed her since she was approx. 18 months old.  I believe this was a Cracker Barrel along the way. It was our favorite stop to get something to eat, use the restroom, walk around the store for a break and then keep traveling. What an awesome thing to do for children - more families do this than you know.  





In CA doing Rtms therapy - has a tight grip on that little girl.  We had some scary things happen early on during the trauma we all experienced because of Abigailes injury from her serious vaccine reaction.  But when we were together Abigaile was well because Abigailes family supported HER and we went through everything with her.  And well now during this time, is by far more traumatizing and worse that the initial trauma of the vaccine because even then we realized the damage the drugs did- sadly its ignored now.  Abigaile with Allen. 
This was in New Mexico at a hotel.  You can see we were dressed from the Grand Canyon.  It was still unseasonably warm in Arkansas when we left we actually had shorts, Tee shirts and flip flops on.  We got to the Grand Canyon and there was a massive cold front that came through.  We were all freezing, couldn't get to winter clothes ( yes it was that cold).  We had to find a WalMart so that we could all find jeans and long sleeves tee shirts to put on.
Natascha, Allen and Abigaile.
Amazing healing that God has done in the right circumstances- when in the will of God.  Not drugged, just doing the right care plan and the right implementation.  Abigaile at therapy.  Standing all alone with no help or assistance from anyone. I would time Abigaile doing this at home and she could easily stand for 20 or more minutes at a time.  Not drugged.   

Arkansas our last Christmas prior to leaving for CA. for therapy and treatment for our Abigaile.  Christmas 2010. Allen, Abigaile and Natascha.  
In Ca. in Rtms therapy with Abigaile.  Allen and Natascha - the crazy things that we do for our children that might not look right to others - but when they WORK - they WORK.


I couldn't get the photos to place in order as I wanted but I wanted to reflect the day that honors dads.  Children honoring their dad is more than buying a card, buying gift and spending time with them.  These days are however a human tradition and have nothing to do with being honored as a dad.  What a dad teaches his children is by far more important than any card or gift.  When a dad teaches their children to honor God first and the ways of God first that is the greatest honor to God.  

Respect and honor toward a mom and dad is a commandment of God.  This is so that the child, even as an adult child can still honor their mom or dad.  

Exodus 20:12 


happy fathers day