1,216 days May 21, 2017 - September 18, 2020 Alienated and estranged from her mom

 Abigaile sounds lethargic and drugged every time now on our supervised phone call. There is no response or engagement in our call. I can hear in her voice she is giving up. She no longer has life in her mind or her soul.  

What kind of person kills a child’s soul ?

May it be Your will,  God, that enmity will end and this new year will bring peace for us and the entire world.

May it be your will, God, that this year be full of joyful dates and meaningful relationships.

Love, hugs, sugars and more love,

Mommy

Xoxo

❤️💕

1,212 days May 21, 2017 - September 14, 2020 since Abduction and Interstate Kidnapping

 

  Happy Birthday to my beautiful Natascha.  

  Happy Birthday to my beautiful girl Natascha <3 Momma loves you and misses you. This is not the birthday that I planned for you - nor have the birthdays that have been stolen from you and from me since 2017. I can't even comprehend how anyone can be so cruel. I have left you a voice mail and can only hope and pray that you will call me back. I did get the thank you message for the birthday gift that I sent to you, a necklace with your birthstone that says mama loves me - please wear this close to your heart and know even with the distance that we have both been forced to endure that we will never be apart. No one can steal that bond and love that we have for one another. Please know that momma loves you beautiful and misses you and you can call momma anytime that you want to or message me anytime that you want. Don't allow others controlling and manipulative behaviors to keep you from doing it. I pray that your day is blessed by God and that you have a happy birthday momma loves you xoxox

 To you my beautiful girl for all the lost memories - just know my sweet , beautiful girl there will be more memories to make.  More memories to do and places to go.  We will make even more memories than before with no one keeping anything from us.  The memories of your childhood that were stolen can't be replaced but we will make more.  I promise.  

  

  Natascha, Your birthday commemorates the day that God created you and said to you as an individual, are unique and irreplaceable. There is no other person alive, no person who has ever lived, and no person who shall ever live, that can fulfill the specific role in My creation I have entrusted to you..."

This is the day when you were given the mandate for your mission to help change the world. The day when God entrusted you with the mission to challenge a world that is so hostile spirituality and to be able to transform it into God's private garden sanctuary. And in accomplishing this goal you were given the ability to achieve incredible spiritual heights. The kind of heights that are unimaginable to the soul before it was dispatched from its lofty heavenly home to inhabit your physical body.

Celebrating a birthday is also a demonstration of confidence. The type of confidence that you are and you will continue to be worthy of God's trust. No matter the obstacles, no matter the circumstances, you will persevere and live up to God's expectations of you.

Fulfilling the commandments of God is the vehicle through which we connect to God. It is how we are made in His image. 

That means greater responsibility, but an infinitely greater connection, too. Your birthday is also the anniversary of this awesome occasion. This is reason to be thankful for your birthday. 

When you were born it was God that invested within you a soul abounding with talents and qualities. These talents and qualities of your inner soul are those things God given to you that will help you to complete the mission that God has assigned to you on this earth. 

On this day you have the ability to accomplish that which might be very difficult on any other day. I pray that this day you feel a special connection to God. That you are reminded of how God created you for your mission . Be blessed in Your special day the day that you and your mission was born into existence. Be blessed my beautiful girl on your special day <3 love you and miss you so very much

 Your momma forever, 

        xoxoxo