I think its time to finally realize Winter is coming soon

  I don't like to admit it but I think Winter is coming very soon.

It was just the past few weeks of all the wonderful Fall Harvest Festivals.  This is one Fall festival that I never planned for.

Considering the circumstances it was "Alone time" spent well with God.  God is amazing and considering He is my first love. Its good to stay connected but when the crap of this world gets you down its a good time to spend time away with the Lord.

Sometimes we all have to be broken to be fixed.  I have faith.  In God. I trust God and I love and live for God.  I may be weak and my flesh may fail but my God never will !

I am thankful for His love, mercy and have nothing but Thanksgiving in my heart for HIM.

So this post is going to be short since I have work and need to get some rest.

This post is going to be about my family.  I have nothing written or commentary except to say that it is MY family.

They look like they are having a good time so I'm glad to see that.  Thankful for my family.

Abigaile, Natascha, Allen 

Natascha 

Abigaile

Normally I am the one taking the photo.  So only so that I don't get asked questions about where they are at.  I want to clarify that I am not the one taking the photos.

be blessed in the Lord,
Paris 

Simplicity in Life -

This video is not my video but it is a Tedtalk motivational talk.  It speaks about how we are killing our society by more stuff.  I personally would rather have family in my life instead of more worthless junk.  Im posting this so that you can see why we made the choices that we did. Its not important to me if you agree with me.
https://youtu.be/ihXyiVnJu78

  The dust settled and we had finally got the coach that we both were looking forward to just to be able to live in our own stuff and Abigaile would have her own stuff and not crawl in motel room floors,

We then started the process of trying to clean out the coach and making alterations and making the floor, walls etc clean with no carpet.  We still have a ways to go. There are several repairs that need to be done we have them on a list.

Our resources were limited and we were working with the Medical Trust that had been awarded to Abigaile for her injury, pain and suffering.

We had dreams of moving to Texas and settling down finding some land and being a family.  Texas a lot like Arkansas and half -way between California and Florida with Missouri in the middle. The Physiotherapy, HBOT, and Tomatis on the West coast California.  Dr Kartzinel on the West coast and the East Coast ( Florida).  Family in Missouri and family in Florida.

Allen had just gotten a position with a temporary agency and working with Verizon.  It was time to finally look for a van. Abigailes van was really starting to be a pain. It had really been a pain since day 1.  I wish that we had better resources than we did so someone could have advised us on making contracts with shady people like Chalmers.  I also wish that there had been people in our lives who could have offered advice that worked in the industry but it didn't happen.  So we were looking for a new van.  One with no so many issues in trying to get fixed.

We were finally getting ready to look for land but had planned to start Abigailes therapy again this fall and over winter so that we could get her back to her routine and our routine after it seems like a non-stop time since 2011.  But it didn't happen.

I want to share this video to people so that people can understand why I felt it was a good idea to get a coach.  Allen and I agreed on the coach and the treatments that we were doing for our daughter.  But this video explains why I felt it was a good idea to simplify all of our lives in order to live our new life.

Its not important to me if anyone agrees or not. That isn't the point. My point is that we needed to simplify things because of the hell that each of us lived.  Allen, Paris, Natascha and Abigaile lived the hell- no one else.

This care plan did that.  So please watch the video and know when things get turned upside down in your life and things don't go as planned. Some of us don't have to live life like the rest of the people do.  We put our family and our children first and unfortunately Allen and I were always last.
Thats called having a "servants heart".

I stay at home and I care for my family and for my children. I cared for my child.  I homeschooled.  I don't have to have your commercialism because I love my family more than I love stuff and forcing my husband to work all the time.



https://youtu.be/ihXyiVnJu78

Letting it go

Footprints 

One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.

After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.

This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

It is not my will Father, but Your will. 

Happy Birthday beautiful girl

  Happy birthday Natascha wherever you are.  I wish I knew but I don't.  I never thought that I would see a day that I would be kept from you or celebrating your birthday.  I can't tell you the pain and the hurt that it causes my heart.

  But to see your pictures and see you having fun and smiling then hey what a 19th birthday right so enjoy it.  I wish I could have celebrated it with out but I wasn't given that option.

  So 19 years ago - your dad and I wanted a baby. I told your dad that I was pregnant by putting my positive pregnancy test in the ring box that your dad gave me. My wedding ring.  I thought it was the most exciting day of my life.  We already had your name picked out and everything.

  Your dad was working at Fed-Ex (  I wish he still was ). I had to go to the hospital on my own. Yep. drove there alone. I waited while Donnie Rae at Fed Ex worked with another driver to get your dad home so he could come to the hospital. I don't even remember your dad getting to the hospital. I was so excited to be able to finally see my beautiful girl.  My aunt Lorene and my mom came to see you.  Your dad was so proud of you.  So was I.  You were born just around 7 pm. if I had your birth certificate I could check the time but that is gone too.

  I was so excited that I don't think I slept all night.  I just couldn't wait until it was time to feed you again just to be able to see you and hold you.  You were the most beautiful baby I had ever seen.

  I have seen you as a child I cherished so much being able to be at home full time as your mommy. When you were little we would homeschool by going to Murphy park and feeding the ducks bread. We would spend hours at the library sometimes before or after the park.  Then we would go to McDonalds and have a hamburger and ice cream. That was so much fun for you and me.  We also spent lots of time trying to do play dates ( those were really awesome ) because mommy got time to talk to other mommy and you got time to play with a lot of kids.  We also went to dance classes and you were always in skits at church. Always so very active in things and I loved doing those things with you.

  I loved homeschooling you we had so much fun doing theme units and dressing up. it was fun when we did the history and theme and cooking. I will never forget living on West End St. and doing the cooking for each theme unit.  We dressed the house up with the country that we were studying and the whole downstairs then we would cook the meal from that country on Friday nights for you, your dad and I to share. We had so much fun going to the homeschool groups at the Jones center and it was fun for you to be able to be with other kids and be in the different co op classes. I wish we could have done this more. It wasn't possible as with many things because of the trauma care and Abigiales health.

  I always tried to do fun things for you and your sister for your birthdays.  I suppose they were less than fun for you the older you got.  It was always just me, you , your dad and Abigaile and somehow we ended up celebrating your birthdays together.  I always asked you if that was okay and since you said yes thats what we did. It was more fun for you and I to decorate especially the older you got it was just me who decorated. I always wanted you to have fun on your birthday and to have fun.  The birthday in Conway was a lot of planning but had to be the worse birthday ever.

  I only remember one birthday celebration the year Abigaile was born that we had friends over and Mimi.  No one ever came and it became useless to say anything so I gave up.

 So now this year I am the one who is not there celebrating with you.  I am beyond hurt and I am beyond sad.  There really is no way to describe the hurt.  Im so sorry I couldn't be with you and Abigaile but I wasn't given an option.

  We started celebrating with ladybugs and butterflies ( really your idea) and I thought they were cute. This year I couldn't even buy you a card or a gift because I don't know where you are.

  This years marks your first year really into adult hood and so I hope you follow your dreams. Ive tried to encourage you with your dream of becoming a brain surgeon and then in music because that is what you wanted to do. I hope that you get to follow that dream.  Really it doesn't matter what you do ( just don't listen to others but instead listen to God) He is the one who will make it happen. So follow what is on your heart. God is the one who put it there. Whatever you do - do it well and pray A LOT !

  I don't even know if I will ever get to see you or Abigaile again.  Im thankful to the Lord for allowing me to spend the time with you that I have.

  I love you I will always love you no matter where you are.  I saw by the pictures that your dad sent to me that you were having fun and laughing and enjoy some junk food ( like you always do), and I saw the cards.  I am so glad that you had a happy birthday.

love,
your momma 

Happy Birthday beautiful princess

I wanted to wish my little girl a Happy Birthday.  I know princess that no matter where you are that your mommy loves you and Jesus loves you.

I remember that day September 7, 2003 just as if it were yesterday.

I had just finished painting the floors at the house on West End st and went to bed around midnight.  I went to sleep with your ultrasound and a magazine on my chest.

The outline of your ultrasound is still etched forever in my mind.  I can still see your eyes. They say that your eyes are a window to your soul and all I saw was clear all the way down in your little soul and you weren't even born yet.

I was so excited to be able to meet my princess that I couldn't sleep. I actually think I caused my self from excitement to go into labor.  I woke at about 3 am and just couldn't go back to sleep.  I wanted to see my new little princess so bad.

I eventually woke your dad up and told him I needed to go to the hospital and then we woke your sissy up and told her that we needed to go to the hospital.  We took Natascha to a friends house so she could play and spend the night while you made your way into this world.

You are born around 11 am and from that hour on your little life has been hectic.  I am so thankful that God gave you to me. You have made my life so complete.  I have admired how people have been so mean, haven't been in your life and you still love and show love no matter what.
You have given your mommy Joy in such a unique way that I can't even explain it.

I couldn't wait to see you. I know how excited I was to see Natascha as a baby and you were no less exciting.  You both made a grand entrance.  An emergency c-section is not something to laugh at.  I thought you were the most beautiful baby ever.

Your dad , Natascha and I had so much fun playing pretty , pretty princes waiting for you to come from the nursery.  It was so fun. Even going through the hell at that time we were not shaken.  Your dad sitting with his tiara and ear rings, and adorned like a princess. I wished we would have had enough money to have phones with cameras then so we could have take pictures.

I was so afraid when they told me that you weren't well. The major antibiotics, the tests and knowing you were going home with a bill-light I knew the liver was being over taxed. I just wanted you to be healthy.

Children and our family were more important then that phones.  Ill never forget we went to Sam's club to take a family picture. It was the last one we had taken right after you were born.  Last family photo was Fourteen years ago.  I kept choking and trying to hold back the tears scared to think that it might be your last photo.

 
I love you my beautiful princess and even though I don't know where you are right now your mommy misses so much it hurts and I love you. Your mommy wasn't given an option to be with you on your special day.  I will always love you my little princess. I hope God blesses your day today.

I would die for you,
love your mommy

Todd White Take away all the Excuses

Do you need Peace that surpasses all understanding? You need to watch this.  Amazing testimony.

Covenant Hour of Prayer [July 29, 2017]

Covenant Hour of Prayer [July 29, 2017]

Mistreated Part 1

  Okay so it's taken me awhile to write this post as I had to pull the plank from my own eye in order to see all of it. You see I kept getting splinters here and there. My excuse is that it was everyone but me that was causing it.
Yes there are times that we do our own damage. We must fix it though. Especially if we call ourselves Christians and wish to like the life God wants us to live.
  This honestly took a month of my best friend telling me to stop living in fear. I couldn't see that this was fear. I couldn't see it was a plank in my own eye. Then I talked with her one night and she said shut up, you are talking like a spoiled brat. Go talk with God. Go talk with Father now He wants to talk to you. Im like but , but, but... she said no Im going now. Go talk with Father its urgent. SO I did.

I could not believe the damage of thought that I was not only inflicting on myself but on my family as well. I saw fear in an entirely different way. I saw fear for the first time as a tool that the devil used on me. Now that I am delivered from it . This was no easy task for me. I had to give up all control. I no longer have "poor me " mentality. No longer am I a victim but instead a "Victor".

I want to share with you my testimony so that others may be saved from this ridiculous plot of satan to ruin relationships, friendships, and marriages especially. Look around at marriages how they are being attacked. Did you know that satan wants to destroy your marriage? OF course he does he even is trying to destroy the very definition of marriage and covenant of marriage and when your marriage is destroyed - your covenant with God is destroyed as well.
This was the most amazing thing to be delivered from because now I look at others and I see others and think, wow man I know where that person is or what they are thinking. This is still fresh to me. Ive never been delivered like this. Never. I was saved and going to Heaven but now I don't ever wonder am I going to Heaven I know for sure. I was carrying so many of my own burdens. I carried other peoples burdens. I picked up burdens of my family. Friends. People I didn't even know. Might have been someone I prayed for. I even carried guilt and shame from my child hood and from years later.  So much horrible, horrible stuff.

I am so thankful to God about how its gone now. I want to do this as a ministry for others. satan is running amuck to and fro on this earth controlling peoples thoughts that will drag them right into hell.
I did a lot of reading. I cried. I asked God what happened. You see though I have been praying for several years now because I could see this building. I could see it but didn't know what it was or why it was happening. Now it is so clear. I also hear and see and interpret scripture so much more differently. I can't tell you the burdens gone though.

People can say hurtful things to me and if it is family of course it hurts. But I don't see it as offensively anymore. I see it that they are hurting too. I start praying for them to be delivered. I still have many family members I am praying this for.

You see God tells us to pray for our enemies. Haven't you ever wondered well what does he say to pray for them? Or am I the only one who wants to know what to pray for them? I don't really think I am.

He also tells us when someone offends us to pray for them and forgive them seventy times seven.  Wow thats a lot but when we pray for people what should we pray? Pray the fruit of the spirit into them. Pray for them to have

Galatians 5:22-23New American Standard Bible (NASB)

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

We also need to pray for them and for ourselves too that when we do something to honor God we need to ask God to bless us. When we do something that is in deceit to expose it. 

If we stop trying to say well you did this and you did that and instead pray love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control into people then their spirit literally changes. Pray this into yourselves also. You will be so glad you did. 

Yes, you might still feel the ping of that hurt but remember how you felt when you felt offended. Remember satan is a spiritual battle he isn't physical. He can and will control your thoughts. 

I want to share with you the most awesome video of John Bevere that explains how this starts, what feeds it and how you can win this war on hate. Because that is what it is? How else do you get Christians to turn against one another much less to have Christian marriages turn on one another. I pray that this opens your eyes. I literally felt like scales left my eyes. I immediately started sending my husband messages telling him that I apologized and that I was truly sorry for acting the way that I did. You see some things that he said triggered some of those past hurts and what he was saying was that he was hurting too. I couldn't see it. I couldn't hear it. It was satan working on my thoughts and my mind he had a good grip. Im not fighting that battle anymore. I am in the courts of the heavens and plan to tell everyone . I play on telling as many people as ai can how satan is dividing families. 

You feel its innocent. You just want someone, anyone to listen to you. At some point it doesn't matter who it is. Your like "but Im the victim in this listen to me". The only victim that you are- is that you are a pawn for satan to use. 

This is the video that started me on this adventure to learn more. I plan to post more. Please get a notebook, a pen, and your Bible. If you don't own a Bible go to Bible study tools for a free version of the Bible. I like using NASB because it is simple read and in modern English.  Pray before you listen and pray before you study.  This is seriously good stuff. 

May you be blessed. 

John Bevere John Bevere How to Respond When You Feel Mistreated John Bevere Ministries

https://youtu.be/K9BcdMhkYl0

I also have a list in my notebook and on my prayer wall of those whom I offended. Initially it started as a " I felt shame for what I did " I started begging people to forgive me. I started with my own immediate family. I told each one except I was not able to tell my youngest daughter how I had been used and believed satans lies. I asked them to forgive me. Each time that God brought something to my attention I messaged them in emails or on texts and ask for their forgiveness. This is not going to be difficult for you after the first one if your truly forgiven. I don't even have forgiveness from everyone yet and I can't tell you how much better I feel. I am so thankful that god gave me this gift. I feel like I have a new life. 

My prayer:

God please touch each and every person who visits this site. Lord please I ask that this message opens so many eyes of people. That people will be blessed by it. People will be delivered. People will be saved. I pray that anger, guilt, shame, hate, frustration, jealousy, rejection, sexual sin, perversion, lying, deceitfulness, slander, fear, condemnation, feminism, all be gone in the name of Jesus. Amen 

Happy Fathers Day

 Im reminded of Fathers Day.  This year just as hurtful as the year my dad passed away.  This world is just not my home.  I miss my daddy so much the pain hasn't completely gone away I don't think it ever will.  My dad was such a good man. He was honest, full of love, had patience beyond understanding, had Joy talking to people, was kind and gentle to everyone he met. Im not sure he ever met a stranger. I seldom saw him lose self -control.

I would like to wish my husband Allen and dad of our two girls Happy Fathers day also.

  I did want to wish all the Fathers out there Happy Fathers Day.

I do want to share this Fathers Day card with everyone though. Its really special because this Father is in Heaven and hopefully very soon we will see Him.

Fathers Love Letter
https://youtu.be/WYzr3JavFqM

My Child,

You may not know me, but I know everything about you.   Psalm 139:1 

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.   Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.   Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.   Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.   Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.   Acts 17:28 

For you are my offspring.    Acts 17:28 

I knew you even before you were conceived.   Jeremiah 1:4-5 

I chose you when I planned creation.  Ephesians 1:11-12 

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book.   Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.   Acts 17:26 

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.   Psalm 139:14 

I knit you together in your mother's womb.   Psalm 139:13 

And brought you forth on the day you were born.   Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me.   John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love.  1 John 4:16 

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.   1 John 3:1 

Simply because you are my child and I am your Father.   1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.   Matthew 7:11 

For I am the perfect father.   Matthew 5:48 

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.   James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.   Matthew 6:31-33 

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.   Jeremiah 29:11 

Because I love you with an everlasting love.   Jeremiah 31:3 

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore.  Psalm 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.   Zephaniah 3:17 

I will never stop doing good to you.   Jeremiah 32:40 

For you are my treasured possession.  Exodus 19:5 

I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul.   Jeremiah 32:41 

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.   Jeremiah 33:3 

If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me.   Deuteronomy 4:29 

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart.   Psalm 37:4 

For it is I who gave you those desires.   Philippians 2:13 

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine.   Ephesians 3:20 

For I am your greatest encourager.   2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles.   2 Corinthians 1:3-4 

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you.   Psalm 34:18 

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.   Isaiah 40:11 

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes.   Revelation 21:3-4 

And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth.   Revelation 21:3-4 

I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus.    John 17:23 

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.    John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.   Hebrews 1:3 

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.    Romans 8:31 

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.    2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.    2 Corinthians 5:18-19 

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you.   1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love.    Romans 8:31-32 

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me.    1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again.   Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen.   Luke 15:7 

I have always been Father, and will always be Father.    Ephesians 3:14-15 

My question is…Will you be my child?     John 1:12-13 

I am waiting for you.    Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad.
Almighty God

Spiritual Blinders

Do you ever wonder why we act out in our lives at things that seem to hurt us? We feel mistreated?

If something bad happens to us? Why do so many of us feel that someone is out to get us? Then if more than one thing at a time happens - then there must be more than one out to get us, right?  Have you ever said, "You know I've got so much crap happening to me and my family right now satan must be involved?  

Why do we declare such a thing?  Why do we say that?  God says that the has no control over us unless we should allow it.  The book of Job really explains this best. 

Read: Jobs character is in V. 1-5 https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Job+1%3A1-5&version=NASB

Job was blameless before God. It wasn't that Job didn't sin. But he tried to do what was right in Gods eyes. He also wanted this for his children. 

Then came satans attack.  In Job 1:12 God ALLOWED satan to attack Jobs family. 

So God allowed Satan to test Job (v. 12). The book of Job helps us understand that all bad things which happen come from Satan. He is the one who had bound the woman with a spirit of infirmity (Lk. 13:11-16). He is the one whose messenger was the thorn in the flesh that was given to Paul (2 Cor. 12:7). While God allows these kinds of tests, as He did in the case of Job, He is not the cause of them because He never tempts anyone to do evil (Jas. 1:13). And even then, as with Job, He always limits what Satan can do. “No temptation has overtaken you such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it” (1 Cor. 10:13)

In verses 13-19 we see Jobs testing from satan. https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Job+1%3A13-19&version=NASB

Job lost the number one source in that part of the world for the food and clothing that he and his family needed.

Job lost the means by which he could transport his excess out to sell elsewhere and to bring in whatever he could not provide by himself.

Job lost his family (vs. 18-19). It is quite clear that Job loved his children. He obviously considered them as the Psalmist spoke. “Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one’s youth. Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them; they shall not be ashamed, but shall speak with their enemies in the gate” (Ps. 127:3-5) 

Now back in 2004 my family was tested by satan. It was in no way the same way that Job was tested. But I will tell you it was close. It was enough to knock our spiritual socks off. At the time we just wanted to be content and were trying to live our lives for God. We were living heavily into scripture. We were pastoring a church we already had one beautiful daughter and would soon have another. 

You can read about this journey here. http://abigailesstory.blogspot.com

Psalm 27:8New American Standard Bible (NASB)

When You said, “Seek My face,” my heart said to You,

“Your face, O Lord, I shall seek.”

We were all in the word of God. We prayed together as husband and wife. We prayed with our children. Even though we were going through this trial . We were together and it was good. 

During this time I can say that many emotions were attacked. Many. We felt we had God. God is good. 

This had to be one of the worst things that I have ever gone through in my life. I have a lot of testimonies. But this one. My family hurt. My child hurt. I never once got angry with God. I turned to God to help me. Even though I didn't understand why. 

My heart feels like its ripping out as I even think about it right now. But we were living with God at the head of our household. We were in prayer. We prayed every promise from God over our child even right there in the trauma room of the emergency room while the Dr.s said she may not make it. 

We pressed forward.  And then when our emotions and our hurt got moved again. We pressed forward. 

In the world today there is a saying.  "Keep moving" and when you try that "Keep moving" and if that doesn't work. "Keep moving". 

We took where we found in God.  " Keep praying" and when your thinking that isn't working "Keep praying". Each time this would happen some small breakthrough would happen and we would rejoice. 

I think if you read the blog. You can read the pain that we were going through. This life has been very busy so blogging has not been my strong point. My point is no matter what it seems like. What it looks like. What people say to you or what they don't say- keep praying.

The Dr.s gave our daughter very little hope of survival. My heart was so broken. But we are a family of fighters and we " kept praying". We had strength when we didn't have strength. I believe God carried us all so many times. I literally lost years of my life that I don't remember. 

I don't know what happened. This is called trauma. This is a test of satan. 

Our response and Jobs response. Our hearts were heavy.  Job 14:1

Job had no idea why all this happened to him. Neither did we. 

Jobs suffering which he handled probably many ways better than we did.  Or at least myself. If it doesn't make you bitter it will make you better. We have to learn how to handle this so that we don't plant seeds of bitterness even unintentional. 

If you aren't careful many can sift seeds of bitterness in this time of trauma. We can even plant our own bitterness seeds in trauma.  

We needed to pray and put on our spiritual blinders.  This is so we could stay focused on our road ahead. 

Blinders are used on horses so that the horse can stay focused and not have something to startle his side vision.

Spiritual blinders would be blinders that block out what might frighten us to shy away living for Christ while keeping us focused on our destination - completing a life filled with purity and faith living it for the Lord. 

Today my prayer is :  Lord please put our spiritual blinders on us. We don't need to see the trouble ahead. We know that you God are in control. 

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

My writing before this was out of hurt and trauma that satan has inflicted on my life. My situation is changing and I give God the glory. 

in good faith,

Paris